hey babydoll happy birthday!! i miss you more than anyone will ever know! i hope you have a great day and give grandpa my love and tell him i miss him too!! i love you!! -mag

Happy Birthday Princess. I hope your day is filled with love and happiness. We miss you more than anyone will ever know. Please continue to watch over us. Always in my heart!! Love Mom

Happy Birthday my sweet angel in heaven. I hope your day is filled with singing and dancing today. I am sure you and Dad are having alot of fun. Not a day goes by that I don't miss you and think about you. Can you do a favor for me, there is this family in Washington and their son Dax is dieing, please be waiting with open arms for him in heaven, it looks like it won't be much longer and another sweet angel will be with you, he is just a baby so rock him and watch over him, he has touched alot of lives in his short time here on Earth. Like all the lives you touched when you where here. My sweet ALI BECCA.....love you girlie...

Hey Ali,
Just thinking about you. Its 1:30 and I'm still up studying. I have more to do but I missed you. Knew you would appreciate me hating school. I visited a cemetery for class yesterday. I just wished I could have visited you. I miss and love you!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN !!!! sure do miss ya Love ya hope to c u soon!

not a day goes by that I don't think of you..and the cd you gave me of all the songs we used to sing on the softball bus is still in my car. you get brought up a lot, as I'm sure you know, and I can't help but smile, but at the same time, it never fails that a tear rolls down my face. As I'm sure you already know, my grandmother joined you in heaven earlier this month..I bet she was sure happy to see you! she loved you, that's for sure. you are greatly missed down here, keep watching over everyone, and especially Jill's family right now as she joined you in heaven yesterday. miss and love you..until I see you again in Heaven...

Hey there girl I was just setting around think and talking to my husband and we got to talking about u!
Goodness there is so much to say! well I got married in Feb to the most wounderful guy! wish u could have met him! I am going to start college again for cosmetology in nov!
goodness wish u were here so i could talk to u in person!
Sure do MISS ya girl! love ya!

Hey Ali... Sorry it has been so long since I have been on here. A lot has happened. I got married and have children already. It's crazy how things fly by so quickly. I am sure you are on cloud 9 sweetie. Everybody misses you very much. I will see you again one day. Talk to you later girl!

Love always,
Dewhanie

Ali,
I was thinking about you today. Over three years and I still miss you so much. I have your picture right above my bed in my new apartment. I heard showstopper the other day and thought of you. Its the last thing I ever heard from you because you didn't want to end with goodbye on the phone. We have this crazy homecoming competition thats like a dance and crazy tumbling and silly tricks. You would love it. We did so awesome in prelims today. Please keep watching over me. I miss you and love you so much

Hey Ali,

You've been on my mind a lot. I tell people about you all the time, because they ask about my bracelet. I miss you so much. But I know i'll see you soon.

Miss and love you so much.

Hey Ali! Everyone is missing you like crazy still... Just wanted to let you know that we are still thinking about you.. I wish you were still here!!

This is what is normal to me

Normal is waking up every day thinking this is going to be a good day. But it never is. Sometimes it is better than the day before sometimes it is worse. But it is never good.

Normal is people asking me how I'm doing and me saying fine just beause I don't want them to know the truth...I will never be "fine"'

Normal is having tears waiting behind every smile when you realize someone important is missing from all the important events in your family's life. No matter the occasion and how wonderful it is there is always something missing.

Normal is trying to figure out what to take to the cemetary for special occasions. They don't make balloons for that.

Normal is not sleeping very well because a thousand what if's & why didn't I's go through your head constantly.

Normal is reliving the accident continuously through your eyes and mind, holding your head to make it go away.

Normal is having the TV on the minute you walk into the house to have noise, because the silence is deafening.

Normal is staring at every girl who looks like she is my daughters age. And then thinking of the age she'd be now. Then wondering why it is even important to imagine it, because it will never happen.

Normal is seeing her friends and being jealous because they are moving on with their lives. Even though you know that is what she would want you still feel resentment and wish you could move on too.

Normal is seeing a girl that has hair or eyes or walks like my daughter and just praying that it's her and this is just all a bad dream. Then feeling your heart sink because you know that it isn't.

Normal is every happy event in your life always being backed up with sadness lurking close behind, because of the hole in your heart.

Normal is telling the story of your child's death as if it were an everyday, commonplace activity, and then seeing the horror in someone's eyes at how awful it sounds. And yet realizing it has become a part of your "normal.

Normal is my heart warming and yet sinking at the sight of something special she would have loved. Or hearing a song on the radio that you know she would be singing and praying that there is music in heaven.

Normal is having some people afraid to mention my daughter. Normal is making sure that others remember her.

Normal is after the funeral is over everyone else goes on with their lives, but we continue to grieve our loss forever.

Normal is weeks, months, and years after the initial shock, the grieving gets worse, not better.

Normal is not listening to people compare anything in their life to this loss, unless they too have lost a child. Nothing compares. Losing a parent is horrible, but having to bury your own child is unnatural.

Normal is taking pills, and trying not to cry all day, because you know your mental health depends on it. Normal is realizing you do cry everyday. Normal is crying everyday and then realizing that you didn't cry that day and crying because you didn't.

Normal is sitting at the computer crying, sharing how you feel with chat buddies who have also lost a child.

Normal is not listening to people make excuses for God. "God may have done this because�" I would like to believe that my daughter is in "heaven," but hearing people trying to think up excuses as to why a beautiful young girl,my baby was taken from this earth is not appreciated and makes absolutely no sense to this grieving mother.

Normal is being too tired to care if you paid the bills, cleaned the house, did the laundry or if there is any food.

Normal is wondering this time whether you are going to say you have four children or three children, because you will never see this person again and it is not worth explaining that my daughter is dead.
And yet when you say you have three children to avoid that problem, you feel horrible as if you have betrayed her.

Normal is asking God why he took your child's life instead of yours and asking if there even is a God. Normal is knowing you will never get over this loss, not in a day nor a million years.

Normal is learning to lie to everyone you meet and telling them you are fine. You lie because it makes others uncomfortable if you cry. You've learned it's easier to lie to them then to tell them the truth that you still feel empty and it's probably never going to get any better -- ever.

And last of all...

Normal is hiding all the things that have become "normal" for you to
feel, so that everyone around you will think that you are "normal."

Its crazy how three years have pasted by so quickly! Everyone misses you so much but we all know we will see you again some day... I've listened to the song Who you'd be today By Kenney Chesney so many times today and then it finally hit me We WILL see you again someday...miss you so much,,, Bec Bec

Wow, I can't believe it's been 3 years. I won't ever forget the day I found out you were forever gone from our lives. I won't ever forget the day we roamed the halls all in a haze, eyes red from crying. You are missed, Ali. You touched everyone of us in some way and left a lasting impact. I hope your family and close friends find comfort in knowing that one day, everyone will be together again.

My sweet baby girl, I miss you more and more everyday. Life will never be the same without you. I carry you with me in my heart and can't wait for the day that we are together again. I love you always.

Wow, three whole years have gone by and I still feel as though it was yesterday that I lost the greatest friend I've ever known. I miss you with every day that passes and I wish you were here because I think you might've been the one to make the crazy move to California with me a few weeks ago. I've managed to get out of Pontiac like we always promised we would do. So now I'm sitting here listening to the waves crash against the beach making everyone at home jealous, but I wish you were here to enjoy this with me; I think you'd be so proud that I was so brave. I think you got someone to keep you company about a month ago when I lost another huge part of my life. Keep watching out for me as you always do, and say a little prayer for big lis while you're at it. Miss you soo much Al. *xoxo*

Its hard to believe you have been gone 3 years. Your are missed by so many people. There is not a day go by that I don't think about you. I know you and Dad are having a blast in heaven. But I would give anything to have you both here with us. We have had alot of changes since you have been gone. I am sure you know all about them. Watch over us and keep us safe my "Sweet Ali Becca"! Love you forever, will see you someday....

Missing you!!

hey ali its me again and and just to let u know are family birthday that we have has never been the same with out u and i fells wiered blowing out the candles with out u. because we always use to do it together. i miss u soo soo much.

hey ali its haley bug. i miss u and can not belive it has almost been 3 years. and i am also caring on the # 11 and i always am thinking of u well i will write soon love u soo much haley bug